All By Me Onesies

This was suppose to be a blog post, but it doesn't really fit.( I'm such a bratty snob. )

:P

( MORE book surveys. Hee. )

Dude, back in the day my LJ life was like 90% internet surveys. Haa! They are kind of fun to read now and again.

Booo, class for six hours. Without a break. AHH. So I am off to get tea and foodstuffs.

Um, yes.

So, things with that whole ordeal kind of suck. I am better, in a way, but the right side of my jaw/gums and such hurt like hell unless I keep taking some kind of medication, which I really really hate. It just makes me feel uncomfortable and icky to be taking them, even though it is kind of amazing how the pain goes away, totally, but still. It's really, really frustrating. I moved back upstairs tonight though, so hopefully I'll sleep better in my own bed--even if it is two degrees up here.

Classes start this week. Anxiety! I am terrified. I only have on class, as they don't start till Wed., and I only have classes on Monday and Thursday. I'm so scared though. It's a whole different thing, which is bad enough (change!!), but I'm petrified that they're all going to figure out that I'm nowhere near as smart as I like to pretend to be, and that I will be way over my head and will be a huge failure at life. I keep telling myself I can do it, but still. I have a lot of anxiety about it all.

Still no job. This is totally my fault, as I have put off fixing my resume and really, actively looking for a job. Oops. The store closes in two weeks. I'm going to get the vintage store I've been stockpiling for and working on up and running, so hopefully that will help a little bit. The library is also hiring for clerks, which I have to take a test for, but I don't have to have studied library science for that and I can start getting state benefits sooner. Which would be awesome.

I don't sleep well and I also have really strange dreams. I would give anything to be able to eat the caramels sitting on my desk right now.

I have a lot of anxiety, about both lots of things and nothing in particular.

Oo, also, this is random but I am over on Inksome, same username, nothing there yet but you know. Just in case and all. Invite codes to whoever wants them, I'm not jumping ship yet but figure it is best to be prepared. I also used LJbook, and guys it is so awesome. It's so organized and long and NEAT. It has a table of contents and I love it. Eee.

I still can't believe I found that book.

Today is not off to the best start. Did not sleep well, probably mostly because I had to wake up at 2:45am to take penicillin and so instead of sleeping through everything I woke up and had pain since the other things I had already taken had since worn off. Boo. When I did at last wake up at 8:30 I felt like death. And then I didn't quite eat enough before taking the pain killer, ibuprofen, and more penicillin and now I feel incredibly disgusting. On the other hand, the difference in the jaw and general mouth pain is intense, and thank god for that. With them, I have no pain whatsoever.

To do:
Work on resume
Read book
Blog thingies

Woo. Whateves. I will hang about, take a shower and wear real clothes since those are the kinds of things that make one feel better. No lying about in PJs and being unwashed! Will have to call work later and see if I can switch shifts tomorrow.

I cannot believe that I found that book. I mean, guys. I was a the point where I didn't even think that it existed. I was certain that I made it up, since I had such vivid images of certain pages in my mind and no one ever seemed to know what I was talking about. I thought I would be looking forever and ever, that I would have to make this big search of it, and there it is! It is on its way to me! I sort of don't know what to do with myself now. I've been looking for it, and remembering it for so long! Ahh, I am so melancholy and excited! Ahhh! I cannot believe it. I found it so accidentally and everything. It ended up being so easy. AHH! Life-long search guys! AHH.

Ugh, I feel so gross.

OH MY GOD YOU GUYS!

I FOUND IT. THE VERSION OF THE LITTLE MERMAID THAT I HAVE BEEN LOOKING FOR FOR YEARS. YEARS.

I DIDN'T EVEN THINK IT EXISTED BUT THERE IT IS. OMGOMGOMG.

I JUST DIED A LITTLE.

I ALSO YELLED AND HURT TEETH HOLES BUT OH MY GOD.

*dies*

So, as it turns out today was also not bad. Still no pain, which is cool, although I am finally getting sick of squishy food. I've eaten a ridiculous amount of applesauce! I've been holding off on the ice cream, so that it is exciting when I do eat it, but something salty would be awesome. Booo to no chewing allowed.

Finally watched A Very Long Engagement, after a million years, thanks to netflix's awesome instant watch thingy. Not sure if I liked it or not, but I do now plan on buying it just so that I can look at the clothes! The clothes, ahh! I love it.

Sleepy.

Also, the reality of impending classes has me kind of blah. I know it will be different, because they are graduate classes and they are only at night, and there are only 3 of them, but ahhhh. Break always just flies by in the most depressing of ways. Similarly, that means that the store will be closing in like, two weeks, and that is really depressing and upsetting. Still haven't found a new job. Very bummed about that, while simultaneously in that same kind of denial that has kept me going.

Had planned on fixing my resume today. And then I didn't, oops!

The cat is having a cat fit. AHAHAHA. It's so strange when she does that, because she's old and while she is full of energy, it's not kitten energy.

Ahhhhh. Cross your fingers that I can eat macaroni and cheese for dinner!

So, it was not too bad, as everyone said. There was another girl there named Kaitlin (and we looked alike) who got freaked out when they started to get her ready to have her teeth removed & she was only there for a checkup, haha.

At the moment I am sitting with gauze and an icepack watching PotC & waiting for the meds to kick in. Pudding is delicious!

I know it gets worse before it get better, but so far it's ok so fingers crossed!

So, just in case anyone is able to help, some friends of mine need to find a good home for their cat <3

Here is the link to an entry about it, if you think you even might be able to love him please check it out! His name is Dogwood and he is adorable. We cannot take him since we already took in our stray and my parents don't want another cat.

<333333

NOOOOOOOOOO.

The owl from this post died.




I <3 u owl :(

I hope LJ doesn't decide to kick the bucket. I've got almost eight year's (years?) worth of stuff here. Granted, a lot of the early things are quiz results and surveys, but still. A lot of it is actual, well, stuff. I think it will be okay, but still. I have such a home and community here, I would be so sad.

In other news, being unemployed is impending doom. Today I got really excited when the flower shop downtown had a HELP (wanted) sign up. Working in a florist is one of those jobs that I have a romanticized image of in my head-- I know it's not the way I imagine it, but it's the sort of job that a quirky weird FLB girl or someone would have. Sadly, it was not that location that was hiring but another in an unsavory area. Boo.

I will probably keep the cat hoodie. It is cozy.

Registered for grad classes. I am totally petrified so I just keep telling myself that I can do it. Ahh!

I have to get my wisdom teeth out on Monday. I don't want to. I don't want to so bad. I wish I could just skip it, ugh. It is such a pain, at such a terrible time. I have to do it while I still have insurance though, and I can't do it during the year because of school and--previously--work.

Mom got stuff for sandwiches and I ate about a million and they are AWESOME.

<333

Does anyone who loves me have photoshop for a Mac they would like to gives to moi? Kisses?

I have a lot of vivid dreams. Babies turn into cats in a lot of them, which I guess goes along with my hoodie. Lots of dreams with animals. Lately I like to turn them into stories. It's just that, these days, I read things and I think that I could do it. I think I could write something worth printing and reading, so let's just hope I'm not delusional.

Kisses and hearts always babies!

Yesterday I bought this hoodie. It has a giant cat on it. It's this, but in hoodie form. I needed a new hoodie, because my favorite is getting gross. I just want another of that one. It fits correctly, zips up, is grey with black polka-dots. It's not so crazy that I can't wear it all the time, but it's just whimsical enough to make me feel right.

So, naturally, I am not sure what to do about this cat hoodie. It's really strange, so of course I think it's fabulous. But it's not really as versatile as I had hoped, no matter how I delude myself into thinking it is. It's also not a zip-up, which is generally a problem.

But it has a giant cat on it!

I do not know what to do. I think I might return it and get a normal, solid-colored hoodie. BUT, giant cat. Booooo.

Booo, snow! It just all melted and now it's back again. Such is life in the Northeast, siiiiiigh!

Today I woke up late, lazed around in PJs, bought a hat, and accidentally sprayed myself in the eye with hairspray.

Productive!

:D

OMG you guys! ( I really like reading signs, when I can see them. )

I need dinner.

From wordsof_lore, because I have been the worst Lj-er ever.

Take the first sentence (or two) from the first post of each month of 2008. That's your year in review.



January: Long time no update!

February: First, I ought to stop buying things.

March: This morning I was almost attacked by crows!

April: I AM DYING.

May: So I got my computer in August, and I never really got around to putting much of my music back on it.

June: This week is sad. (Link to Yves St. Laurent's death).

July: I work a lot.

August: Yesterday we put a down payment on a car.

September: I know I missed school and all, but I am beginning to be worried.

October: O HAI.

November: I voted!!!!!!!!!!!!!

December: AHH.


Basically, my stress level increased until I lost my sanity :D

Oh fuzz, going to get glasses.

So, I don't know what it is, but put on any kind of a big sale and people lose their minds. Any semblance of humanity and civilized behavior dissipates into an imaginary place.

A few days ago, a woman came into the store and lost her shit when I said we are no longer accepting returns. We have at least seven signs all around the store, one taped to the register, one taped to the sign outside, on every surface. Lost it, started freaking out and getting all wild-eyed and crazy before screaming "THIS IS BULLSHIT!" and marching her ass out to call customer service. Who then called us to confirm that we had signs up.

Yesterday we had to call security because two women started fighting over a pair of shoes. I believe someone said, "Those are my motherfucking shoes". It was ridiculous. And then my manager caught a 70-year-old woman stealing shoes.

Mostly though, people seem unable to understand how a box works. The pull them out of the wall with reckless abandon, drop them on the floor and plop themselves in a pile surrounded by boxes of shoes. Heaven knows what happens to the tops, they disappear and the ones that we find don't seem to fit any of the boxes without tops. It makes me want to scream at people. They are all such slobs! It's just so strange, that when things like this happen people go crazy, lose their minds, and behave like monsters.

Although honestly, it isn't too bad. We're all looking at it with a kind of bemused detachment, hoarding the shoes that we want and eating snacks between shoe-runs.

Today I will decorate the tree!

I lost my Two Towers DVD. I am trying not to think about it, but I wake up at night and worry about where it might be <3 :(

It is snowing like a mofo. I want to make cookies, but:

1.) I am unsure that we have all the things necessary to do so.
2.) It is snowing and I am not leaving to go get them.
3.) I am cleaning instead.
4.) And instead of cleaning, I am internetting.

ALSO, I got a twitter! heeee :D All over the internet.

Thing that made me happy today:
Sleeping in. Oh god, it was so wonderful. I cannot even explain, my bed was so warm and perfect. Ahh! It was glorious!

Sadly, because of the snow John and I are not hanging out, and I am sad. Boo.

... PLAYED BY ...

:D Do mine and I'll do yours!!!!!

It's over. My undergraduate career is over. This is really strange. On the upside, I feel a little bit of weight is removed, and it is quite nice. The downside is it's not gone totally, I still have, hopefully, grad school and the actual application process (since I'm starting as non-degree) and I'm worried and terribly horribly stressed overall that I won't get in.

But as for now, I can worry about Christmas and the horrible weather that it outside!

How do we ever get through Christmas without LotR movies in the theaters? I wonder, hee.

Perhaps tonight we will put the tree up!

Thing that has made me happy today, even though today is nowhere near over:

Making macaroni elbows and peas! Listening to my new records, watching LotR and lounging around. Ahh, release!

So, Ratatouille, might be the cutest movie ever. I basically cannot contain myself. I LOVE little furry things omg.

Also, Twilight kind of ruins GoF, in a way. Boooooo for killing Cedric, both literally and whatever the other way I'm talking about is.

Also, OOPS I didn't finish my paper. HEEE. Oh well. I just, I have no patience anymore. It's all I do all the time, and I know that after this week it will be over--for this semester--but still. I am going to hand this one in tomorrow, and then I will start immediately on another one. Which is also insane, since I spent all day Friday working on one. OH GOD. So much hate. At least, I can, sort of, pull it off. I might pass out and die in the next few days, but still.

In other news, it is cold. There is a huge pile of laundry on my floor. It's bigger than I am. Sometimes I think that like, I have a lot of clothes, and together they are way bigger than I am, and if they decided to revolt, I would be so screwed.

Sleep.

OH GOD, MY BRAIN. It dies.

Papers booooooooo. Ugh, I hate this class. I just need to think of it as writing four pages tonight and four pages tomorrow.

It is so cold. Mom is making pancakes. Someday I will write real entries again.